Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
So on Monday as I left our doctors office I felt overwhelmed. It wasn't fear so much as just the feeling of needing to let out a sigh from deep in my soul. I was struggling the whole way home not to cry, and not to let all of the "could be's" start taking over my thought process. As I was driving and wrestling through my thoughts I hear that still small voice ask me a question, "Are you going to let this steal your joy?"
I was a little taken back. The last few weeks for us have been full of rejoicing over great news from an MRI, watching a close friend choose to join a rehabilitation program for people struggling from addictions, and poor life choices, and then watching her give her life to Christ. The week following that we spent on the beach enjoying each other. It has just been some of the best few weeks we have had in a long time. So as I sat and pondered the question I made a decision. This will NOT steal my joy.
The decision isn't as easy as it sounds. I can't tell you the number of times during the last few days I have heard that question again and again. As my thoughts start to wonder, as Riley calls to remind me of the appointment, and as I look at my calender and realize Abigail has two other doctors appointments next week, I start to feel like I'm sinking. It's all too much. And then I hear it again, "Are you going to let this steal your joy?" I look down and there is a smiling toddler asking me to "dan dan" with her, read to her, and snuggle her. So I once again make the declaration, no matter what today looks like, no matter what the outcome of her MRI next week, I will not let anything steal my joy!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
However this video is the perfect picture of how we are feeling today! We are dancing and singing because despite the fact that it seemed almost certain they would find something; the MRI came back clear! So en joy the video of Abigail's awesome skills of dancing and singing...and then feel free to join in rejoicing with us!
Praising the Lord,
Monday, June 7, 2010
Abigail got some "blue's clue's" stickers from the nurse who weighed and measured her! Good start for her.
Lots of these moments before. She was hungry, tired, being seen by lots of strangers, and stuck in a little room.
And she enjoyed snuggling papa and watching some television while we waited.
Before we were taken down to MRI we found this cool car she got to ride in. She sat and went "beep beep" the whole way.
Two hours later...a groggy disoriented little bug.
Somewhat happy (although disoriented) to find out her baby had a sticker (even if it was because baby wasn't actually with her during the MRI and they needed to label it as hers).
My favorite picture from the day. She had a hard time when she woke up because she only sucks her right thumb, and that was where they had put the I.V. However she did make a few attempts at it before she got frustrated and gave up. So sweet and snuggly. If you look real close you will see the tear on her cheek.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
However today I have much to be thankful for. So I thought I would do a list of things I'm thankful for today.
1. God spoke loud and clear today that his bringing us Abigail was not chance, and as He promised He is doing great things through her life to bring others to Himself. Truly beautiful beyond what I can write here!
2. Good friends from college coming to visit, laugh, reminisce, and dote on the sweet little girl who brings joy to our lives.
3. A husband who is my best friend, an AMAZING papa, and wonderful man. I can't describe how much I love seeing him sitting on the couch eating popcorn with Abigail and watching Elmo's potty video.
4. A little girl who's smile can melt my heart, who's laugh fills my soul, and who brings more joy into our lives than I could even begin to try to put into words.
5. A fun day before a hard one tomorrow. A day where life felt fun, and although all that will change will be the unknown being made known, it was nice to not think about NF, tumors, MRI's or the future (much) today.
Yes, Abigail's MRI is tomorrow. But today we will choose to be thankful and live for today. We will not have results tomorrow, and depending on what we find out, I may not post right away. Jason and I will both be going tomorrow which should make it a little easier. However you can pray that Abigail does well not eating, being put under, having the dye injected, and coming out of the anaesthesia without a belly ache, or being to disoriented to walk. She has done well before(although she hasn't had one since she has been walking), and are believing that she will tomorrow as well. Thanks for being a wonderful supportive community that I can share both my thankful list, and my need for prayers in the same post. :)
Mostly just thankful,