i thought reading all the books was a great idea. take ideas from each one, figure out what i agreed with and didn't, and run with it. turns out, the first time my daughter didn't do something by 'the book' i was following for this specific part of parenting, i was a hot mess. i cried. i knew that i had failed as a parent that day. our lives were ruined. she was six weeks old. she had not been alive for two months yet.
i would love to say that was my wake up call. but, it wasn't. instead, i continued to devour books about parenting. i've read more than i can even recount. and with each new book and concept i became a little more stressed out. all i have ever wanted, was to be a great parent to my girls.
kiddo two, i didn't even open the books that were given me on down syndrome. even if i had wanted to attempt some sort of sleep training method, it wouldn't have mattered since she spent so much time on narcotics during the first year.
i quit reading parenting books. well, that's not entirely true. i have one i really like, and read, and re-read. grace based parenting. i love that book. but the rest, no thanks. i'm not even intersted in the newest articles from psychologist really.
i have my thoughts and philosophies on parenting. i know what has worked for our family to get the most sleep for everyone. i know what we believe about discipline. i know how we feel about television watching, eating and health, helping around the house, and on and on. it's okay if you feel differently. it's even okay with me if the psychologist have said something different than what we do. they don't know my kids,nor do they ever offer to come help me out when they expel their newest thought and philosophies on parenting.
i was spending some time with friends the other day when a friend recommended a book she was reading about discipline. it sounded interesting. i had no desire to read it. what we are doing works (most days). our children seem to feel loved and secure. i don't want to start over, or add to my long list of parenting guilt.
and somehow, i was able to walk away without even giving the book another thought. i think knowledge is power. i think our society has saturated us with parenting information, all of it research based, and all of it saying the opposite of each other. some say co-sleep. some say cry it out. i say, figure out how everyone gets the most sleep, and do it. some say no television ever. some say after two. i say, figure out what you need as a parent to be a great parent. sometimes, that's putting the children in front of a television show, and taking a break. it's okay. some kids respond best to time-outs. some respond best to a (well controlled, not angry) spanking. some kids have a 'thing' that they would do anything to keep it from being taken away. figure out which one is your kid, and be consistent.
and most of all, give yourself grace. it was a hard morning at our house. i was exasperated at the event that took place, but i also was sort of proud of myself later, for how well i handled the situation. and so i treated myself to five minutes of